primary
sexual
metamorphic impulse

blazing through the body
melting ligaments and tissues
liquifying bones

annihilating bodily structures
toward one pulsating mass
a throbbing vibration
of expansion and contraction
an amoeba once called the self

no logic
no structure
no grid

flowing
amorphous
engaging in a pitiful
gargantuan
breathtaking struggle
to touch

not touch

collision
pressure
friction
distortion

blind
deaf
moaning its loss
helplessly ravenous
seeking
approaching
withdrawing

[like stars disappearing from the direct gaze]

a point that contains the universe
a hopeless and monumental struggle
from which restructuring arises

recoding

deep
hidden
a physical structure re-emerges

exhausted

blinking
hearing
swallowing
strange taste of residue
warmth and moisture

inhabits a new form

(24 june / 27 december 2013)