i am at a swimming pool
a large black spider is walking on the white tiles around the pool
they are moving around
and i am moving around
identities merging
every time i put the paper away again
i forget
i become desperate
thinking
i will never catch the plane now
i can go get her the gift
the very special gift
which i understand is what she really
really wanted
now it is dead
watch out for the spider!
but i am not scared
i know it belongs to me
it is so wild and active